Some of you may have already seen my site on flickr where I've been posting pictures of myself since November 2013. It was a big step for me to do this. After years of looking at pictures of other women, transwomen, and cross dressers, I finally came to the conclusion that I might be able to pull off a look that I could be proud of enough to share with others. This opened up a new world to me, one where I was sharing AND receiving. I also met some really fantastic people who opened up to me about their lives, and helped me with advice, tips, and positive feedback about improving how I look en femme.
I know I've come along way towards defining the look I want, and being more relaxed in front of the camera, allowing Monica to 'come out'. My biggest step was finally starting to use makeup -- still learning how to do that better, but it's coming along. You can see the difference between one of my earlier pics on the top, and one of my later pics below. I used to turn from the camera and try to look feminine in my 'outline' (figure), and I thought that was cool. Particularly because my face was a 'mystery' (mainly to maintain privacy, and because I didn't have a clue about makeup).
Once I realized I could do a presentable job with makeup, it allowed me to relax and really show Monica as she is, or as I would like to be.
Posting on flickr has also made me come to realize how much work and effort it often takes for women to look and feel beautiful. Sure, some have it easier than others, and practice makes it quicker. But there's still a lot of thought and planning into creating a look you want. I have a new found appreciation for women who do this well, and go out of my way to compliment them when possible.
My flickr activity ebbs and flows, but I really value the community that I've come to know there.


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